Heh... I ask you to call and every time you do I'm either at work or in the shower.

My bad.

I have Monday and Thursday off just so everyone knows when I'm available. I will be busy but at least my cell won't be on silent so give me a ring if you want.

o.o If you let popcorn soak in soda and let sit over night the next day it will smell like fried chicken. ...What the Hell is wrong with this food. ._.' ...

...I don't know what to think about what just happened. I mean... was it a mistake, or is it what I think it is? ...Greh. I dunno.

A part of me wants to be like "Well, if thats how she is going to be then screw it. I don't care anyways." But thats not how I feel. Did I do something, or am I just awkward to talk to? ...Do I care? Yes. I wouldn't be thinking about it or writing about it if I didn't and I wouldn't be so bothered by it as well.

...It hurt.

I much more prefer it when people are just plain honest with me and straight up tell me how they feel rather than just treat me like something they can just walk away from as if I never even existed.

If you feel like talking to me then give me a call. If not then at least give me an email or something. Whichever you prefer.

-_-' I don't get people at all...

With every inch of our necks covered, we scream for help. We plea for assistance. We gasp for reassurance. We reach out and get pushed away, knocked down, betrayed.

Redemption.

Forcing light into ourselves. Feeding on it. Then releasing it as darkness. Darkness that fuels the imagination. Darkness that poisons the mind. Darkness that contrasts the light. Without darkness there would be no light.

Damn. I actually have to buy Flash now. <_< The copy I had didn't work. Gah!! XD More money spending.

Tomorrow I get a day off! Yes! ^__^ Happiness! I think they will start giving me more of these now that the major block busters have hit. (Those being Shrek The Third, Spiderman 3, and Pirates 3.) Last night I closed door for the first time. ._.' Creepy. I had to stay until midnight and make sure the theater was closed properly. After the last movie let out I checked the back bathrooms and when I got back to the lobby I saw that all the lights were out...and...it was kinda scary. Lol, I was the only one there. (The manager was in the office, so technically I wasn't alone. But I felt alone.) I turned in all the tickets and clocked out. On my way home the headlights of my car made figures in the fog on the road. Witch added to my already overly creeped out mood. >_> I liked feeling like that. Its not easy to get me really excited but this had my heart pumping. Constantly feeling like something was gonna jump out at me. Being paranoid. Heh, I loved it.

Today was slow. Got home from work and activated my debit card. Me and my mom are going to look at Macs at Comp USA tomorrow and if we can't find what I want we are gonna go ahead and order it online. I can't wait. The bugs in our normal computer prevented me from creating anything truly worthy of being called a short movie. And if I had more time with the computers in Digital Media I could of done something great... But I didn't have that kind of time. I want to make something great. Something people will look at and be like "Wow! I've never seen anything like that before." I want to great something impressive. I want to test my abilities. I just want to create.

...Rawr. So I kicked a lady out of a theater today. It was my first time. Her baby was yelling and I was given instructions to "get rid of them". I told her that she had to leave and she gathered up her whole familey and stormed to the lobby. Her husband swore at my manager and the lady pointed at me and called me "a fucking lyer". After they left I hid in theater number 1 since it was almost empty and just tried to stay away from people.

Am I too passive?

I felt bad. I feel so weird when I cause people unhappyness. It kills me. But Probus and his kickass personality cheered me up a bit. But I still can't get that fricken situation out of my head. ...-_-' I don't like being yelled at...

By my definition, "outfluence" is influence that is uninfluential. Its the influence that people give off that doesn't quite make it into another person to influence them. So it remains forever hovering, alone.